That awkward moment...
Actually comes true...
And you don't realize it until a year after it happened...
G-Guys. I'm kind of very shaken up right now.
I think... I just... Wow.
My life is never going to be the same.
My pastor told us we should share our God experiences, and... And I just had mine. Last night in fact.
Waffle, this message is for you!!
Once upon a time, there was a little girl who was very sad. She suffered from paranoia since third grade.
In seventh grade, she finally made a friend that she could trust, fully and completely. And through that friend, she made legitimate relationships with other people, meeting who would later become her best friend, her crush, friends that she could run around and get in trouble with and be herself.
In eighth grade, the little girl's friend died.
So she learned, that it is impossible to have stable relationships with people. So she stopped caring. She got paranoid, depressed, at one point nearly attempted suicide.
At church camp the summer after the tragedy, she looked up to heaven and said,
"God, please give her back. Please give me back my friend." She cried, because this was the first person she had ever trusted completely.
And God said,
As she entered ninth grade, her friends talked to her less and less, save for her bestie, but even that relationship grew weaker and weaker.
And she waited. And she waited.
She couldn't be friends with anyone without getting scared, was unable to get close enough to other people to explain how she felt.
So she just smiled, quietly slipping out of friendships as soon as she found them someone else to rely on, trying her best to remain the background character.
Then, one day, about a year after her friend had died, her church was doing volunteer work.
She went around picking up cans to donate, talking to the few people at her church she had not yet let go.
This is where you come in, Waffle.
Another little girl was in that parking lot. She had recently moved into town, and had yet to make any really good friends.
In the first little girls eyes, she saw a spark she had only ever seen in two other people, her best friend at school and her sissie.
But this girl glowed with a fierce, beautiful spark, and the first little girl could not help but be curious.
The first girl walked up to the second girl, seeing that it was unlikely for it to go the other way around.
"Hello!" The first girl said, and the second girl said hello back. Before she could stop herself, the first girl dropped onto her knee, breathtaken by the second girl's beautiful glow.
"My name is (), will you marry me?"
The second girl seemed surprised at first, and then she smiled.
Her smile was beautiful too.
"Sure!" The second girl laughed, a beautiful laugh. the first girl was filled with a joy she hadn't felt for years, and she instantly stood up, satisfied.
From that day on, the two girls spent a lot of time together. the first girl was happy around her, though she still struggled with her depression, anxiety, and paranoia. She didn't have suicidal thoughts around the second girl, and she was happy.
A year passed.
The first girl was scared.
The last time she had let someone get so close to her in so little time, they had abruptly left the Earth.
Afraid to repeat the same pain, the first girl fell back into her depression. She stopped eating, she stopped doing things she enjoyed, she slipped back into suicidal thoughts.
She lost nearly 10 pounds in about a week and a half, two weeks. Her parents started asking if she was growing, since she was getting thinner, and she just nodded and smiled like she always did.
The first girl tried to come up with a reason to stop her relationship,from saving the second girl from getting hurt.
But she couldn't.
Every piece of that first girl wanted to make the second girl smile and laugh and be happy. She wanted to be there and be the best friend she could.
She thought to herself... Maybe... Just maybe... Maybe she could try again. She could trust someone instead of pushing them away, smiling and trying to make others smile and then crying by herself at home.
It was exactly two years after the first little girls friend had died. While she mourned, she thought back to that summer when she had asked God to give her friend back, the person she had been able to trust.
That word echoed in the back of her mind... Wait. Wait for what? Was she going to pop out of somewhere and say "Surprise! I'm perfectly fine!" Was God going to let the girl's friend visit her in a dream, reassure her?
Was it all something she had imagined?
The first little girl gasped suddenly, her fists clenching and her heart pounding faster. She knew she was never going to see her friend again. But perhaps...
That relationship she had missed so much. That one person she could trust without having to think of the consequences, without having to worry about them leaving her all by herself just like everyone but two people had done to her, including the fact that both of those people had disliked the first girl for a while after knowing her.
The first girl had waited.
And found someone.
Waffle... Are you an angel?